MUN..!

There was an MUN event organized in my college recently..!For people who don't know what is MUN...its Model united nations..!Different nations are assigned to individuals..an agenda is set..and then people (delegates of nations) negotiate to come to a solution..!by some random chance i was assigned Pakistan..and the agenda was "can economic development be compromised for environmental protection?"..though this topic is HOT in the world at the moment but Pakistan's participation in this matter is minimal..mainly due to the fact that its an insignificant contributor environment degradation..!and i was assigned a partner who was absolutely miffed on being assigned Pakistan..!a little aggressive in nature..my partner made sure everyone noticed Pakistan in the MUN though we didn't have anything significant to contribute..!:D
and we were noticed for all the wrong reasons..almost thrown out when even the *chair* got frustrated with us..:D
I mostly stayed quiet..mainly because whenever i did want to say anything the right phrase required in UN to initiate wouldn't strike me..my partner and i had completely different views on a lot of issues..which we didn't discuss before because we both prefer working alone..so we weren't aware of each others opinions..which was very foolish on our part..!and my partner being more aggressive would voice his views first..and then i would have to stick with it..!Though on the whole i think we did the best we could with Pakistan..and the credit goes to my partner..because since we didn't have anything substantial to say..so the choice was either to stay mum or talk nonsense..!talking nonsense at least got us noticed..!which was more than i could hope for..!
For me personally it was a great learning experience..at least i got to know how UN works..!am planning to participate again next semester..but with greater preparation..and a much more aggressive attitude..!next time ladies and gentlemen we duel to kill..!;)

Beginning

A new beginning..a new start..excited..nervous..confused..!what am i supposed 2 write..?but then i have so much 2 write about i don know where to start..!Its funny that so many times we have so much to say but don't know how to go about it..!let me start with myself..!i have a habit of over analyzing my behavior and reactions..!finding faults with myself..and then getting upset because my every analysis leads to the conclusion that "i am abnormal"..!my current personality traits lead back to my childhood..!i had a wonderful childhood..all because of my parents..!I have been blessed to have such wonderful parents..!They are caring..supportive..not very expressive..but it shows..!but since "expression" was never the strong point of any of my family members..a kind of space has always been there when it comes to communicating about "embarrassing" things like emotions, love interests and many other things..am sure you got the gist..!though I certainly don't invite over candid discussions with my family about these things, but sometimes i feel a kind of disconnect with my family..!but i guess its the same in most Indian families..!with time am sure things will change..!but then i wonder..would i be comfortable discussing socially prohibited topics with my family..?i guess no..!but then a little bit of intimacy would be nice..what say..?but the main problem is that i have inherited this shyness from my parents which becomes more pronounced when i have to express emotions..such as love..!when i do something for someone i feel embarrassed in expressing that i did it because i care for you..!i would much rather gain my satisfaction by silently enjoying the reactions of the subject..!and since i don't set much store by verbal expressions of emotions..i find people who do express emotions verbally "insincere"..!i somehow believe that silent attention is the most truthful and sincere expression of "i care"..!i may sound unfair to people who do believe in verbal expressions of love and affection..!but my reservations on this matter had to find some way to express itself..!and unfortunately it expresses itself in the form of blushes which i experience in emotionally sticky situations..!